I don't understand how my personal belongings disappear from my own little space that I have here in this apartment. Seriously. It pisses me off. Ugh . . . . I also don't understand how people can give others a gift and then take it back. Why did you give the gift in the first place?! Someone explain that to me please! I seriously cant wait to move out on my own. I think about it everyday. I pictured how my living room will look like, how my kitchen is going to have hello kitty appliances, how my bed is going to be the warmest, softest place to rest. How my bathroom is going to look, how the colors on the wall is going to look. :sighs: I cant wait.
I know moving out has its big issues (money$$), but that's part of growing up. I know, my goal for this year is to save up as much as I can, so I can be able to move out asap. I told one of my co workers how much I wanted to save by the end of the year and he said, "Wow, you really want to be financially safe!" I said, "HELL YEAH" When I move out, I want to make sure I have rents money for the next 2 years. I don't want to be stupid (like other people that I know) and move out with no fucking money. My pride is just way too up there. I would seriously think it 9 million times before asking an acquaintance to lend me money (Family is a different thing). My dad always says, "You cant depend on NO ONE but YOURSELF." Its true, when it comes down to it I can only count on ME.
Also, how am I suppose to deal with someone that I really care about who wont listen to my opinion about his FAKE ass friends?! Everyone that I know SEES how his "friends" are, but HE doesn't! Is something wrong with him?? I don't understand at all. I really love this person and its just devastating and sad that he doesn't see what I see . . . . what other people see too. I don't know what to do. Its like, I want to protect him, but I'm getting to the point that I'm just going to stop. When the day comes that they all screw him over I'm going to be there saying, "I told you so." It sounds harsh, but its true. If he wants to be friends with people who talk shit behind his back then I'll just let him be. I'm done trying to help him see what OTHER people (not just me) see in them. DONE.
Im getting things off my chest little by little. Venting is great :)
On another note, is it just me or do some couples think that they're in a competition with other couples?! Its like they're trying to see who's relationship is the best. WTF! What are you going to win?! Cupids ball sack?! Seriously! There's a difference when someone is sharing a story with you and when they're just being malicious and competitive! There's this person who we talk to each other about our relationships and he/she sends out these vibes that they're just trying to show off or something. I don't think that he/she KNOWS that they're sending out that vibe, but they're sure as hell are! Am I making sense? Ok, let me give an example.
He/She: "Im taking my partner to the moon and we're going to drink a soda pop and share a slice of pie tomorrow night! . . . . What are you and your partner going to do?"
Me: "Um . . . . Probably go to the redbox."
He/She: "Oh" (Disgust on he/she face)
You know what I mean now?!?!? . . . . Last night I went to go see "No strings attached." I gave the movie 7.5/10. It had its funny parts, and it sure as hell had its sad parts. I'm just a sucker for romantic/comedy movies. Love 'em! Also, I realized that I don't like Ashton Cooter as an actor. Idk its just something about him I just don't like as an actor. Natalie Portman on the other hand, she's ok. Although, throughout the movie I kept having flashbacks of her in black swan! It was weird.
Today as me and my two co workers were heading out to leave the building we came across Elton John by the stair case. It was awesome. He was at my job today making an appearance. He played the piano. The piano was this bright red, it was pretty. Anyway, back to our encounter. He had on these fierce sunglasses on (inside the building!) His security were there running around like headless men. They had his car ready to go. We weren't sure if we could even exit the building cause there was so much activity going on. So, we kind of just stood there until our manager asked if we were waiting for something lol We said NO, that we weren't sure if we were allowed to leave. They said yes of course :( OMG once we took a step outside the building there were all there people outside with cameras and posters trying to get them signed. At that moment I finally felt what a celebrity feels like when they step out into the streets. It was awesome.
Im going to bed early tonight for once. Im tired. Have to be at work at 8am tomorrow =/
Goodnight, thanks to whoever reads this :)
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