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Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts

Friday, September 18, 2009

"Fling 'Till You Fall In Love"

[CAUTION: Men/Guys/ Males you might want to skip this blog entry cause I'm going to talk about periods, blood, cramps, boys, sex, you know . . . things that "Gross" you guys out (except the sex part). If you decided to continue to read this lovely blog entry. Don't fucking judge me and say "Eww, did you read what Karla wrote on her blog! Can you believe she said that?!" I've said it before, it's my blog and I can write whatever I want. Nobody is forcing you to read this =) ENJOY!]
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I don't know where to begin . . . . Or HOW to begin.

When I went to work today, I swear I thought I was going to have the worst day ever because I was working with Sindy. It turned out to be great. We talked like nothing ever happened (Nothing happened between us, but it somehow turned to be very awkward when we saw each other all of a sudden). Then, later on Ana started her shift. I didn't know she was going to work. When she got to the floor WE started talking like we were bff's gossiping about boys and the psycho girl. I swear, girls are weird (including myself). She started gushing about this boy she likes then I started venting (not gushing) about boys. Well, a little gushing but mostly venting. I'm pretty sure we were just getting a long because we're both on the period, and all the estrogen floating around just made it happen.

Speaking of bloody periods. I went to go visit my pregnant friend at her job today. I bought her unborn baby the cutest high top converse ever. I walked inside her job and she was GLOWING. Awww, it filled my little greasy heart with JOY. She is showing now =) and she made me touch her belly. Her boobs are enormous! I told her "Geez! You're boobs are HUGE!" Then she said "Really? I thought they were shrinking (sarcasm) Do you want to touch them? (sarcasm again)" hahaha Awww, she looks so cute and puffy =) Tmrw is her birthday, Im taking her and her fetus to a restaurant! Yaaaaaay!

Now, for the serious stuff (ha!) . . .

DATING:
I went on my first real date ever in 2005. High school doesnt count. That shit is just . . . . NO. Does NOT count. Anyway. It was my first semester at SMC, I met this guy in my English class. His name was Mike . . . something. I forgot his last name. He asked if I wanted to go out on a date with him I said "sure" Eversince then, I've been on a couple dates here and there (not with the same guy from my English class). I swear I hate that feeling RIGHT before you're going to meet up for your date. It happens EVERY time. I HATE IT. I dont feel in control of the situation (at the moment) I have NO control of what my insides are feeling. I dont like that. I want to be in control of my emotions dammit. So, after those first dates there's usually NO second dates. Either because I'm NOT interested cause they said something stupid, or just because I didnt find them interesting. OR it's the other way around. When we DO go on a second date, that's usually a mistake.

There's a lot of girls who go on a zillion dates to "see what's out there" until either (A) They get sick and tired of dating and give up on dating. Period. (B) They find "The One" after the zillonth date (I dont think a zillion exists, but you know what I mean). Im very much in the A group right now. I just dont want to bother saying "Yes, lets go on a date so we can waste each other's time! Yay!" Some of you are probably like "But what if 'The One' asked you out and you said NO. And now you're going to grow old like the cat lady" (That's why I hate cats. They remind me of that stupid old grumpy lade with 14,387,150 cats) I dont have an answer to that (yet)! But I will, as soon as I think about it hard enough.

THEN we have the girls who never dated at all, because they found "The One" from the getco. I was talking to my friend the other day about this, and she said "Those girls that never dated, and never got a chance to experience dating different guys have a WHOLE empty chapter in their book. But OUR chapter is filled with stories, and stories!" She's right. I think her chapter on dating is far more . . . interesting than mine though. Now THAT girl has stories in her chapter! And NO she's not a whore. Its just the guys that she's gone out with are just UNBELIEVEABLE.

I would read her chapter over and OVER, just because I know it'll entertain me lol

There's this girl that who also blogs. Her blogs are GENIOUS. I love reading her blogs. This is a piece of one of her blogs:

"ps: a girl reader wrote to me and said that i should ‘fling till i fall in love’. which i totally agree with! that’s the thing: if i know one thing, it’s that I’m totally open to love. I’m not desperate to be in a relationship. But I’m also excited about when, where, and how my next love will come to me! I’m not bitter or jaded! Xo"

I Agree with her and her reader! I've witnessed desperate mesures that GIRLS do to impress a man. Let me tell you, its VERY very shameful! Ive witness desperate measures that girls go through to impress a boy, but NOT like the psycho girl that I work with. Ive never seen anything like THAT before. She's just unbelieveable! I think her situation has opened my eyes BIG time. I would rather eat dirt than to EVER turn out to be like her. I swear, I would hate myself if I ever turn out to be like her. Im NOT kidding! I mean, there's a certain extend that its ok to flirt and be cute with a guy. BUT once you cross that flirting line, THATS IT. You turned into the PSYCHO. Fuck that.

Im 85% that guys dont go through all this drama/stress/dating irritation like girls do. Right? Or maybe I'm wrong. Whatever.

SEX:
... I'll skip the sex part . . . for now. I'll write about this subject in another blog.

I cant write anymore, this heat in this room is irritating me.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Bipolar is hitting hard this summer

Hello Hello! I just got home from the bowl. Jewel performed tonight. My dad got tickets for his cousin who just came from El Salvador and my uncle to go see the show tonight. My dad just got them the tickets because there was going to be fire works at the end. Anyway, my uncle showed up at the lot and I we gave him free parking. He's been calling me Charlie since I was little. (Its a nick name for Karla, So Ive heard) So when he showed he said "Hi Charlie! How are you sweety?!" I said "Im good! Just here working like a slave. Nothing new" Then I told him that I'll see him later cause I had to get back to work. Then he said "ok, thanks sweety! Love you!" and I said "Ok bye!" After the show ended he said "Thanks! Love you Charlie!"and I said "Byeeeeeeee!" Do you see anything WRONG with this picture?! I DO! I cant say IT back! I cant say "LOVE" back to ANYONE. Even to my family! I wanted to tell my uncle "You're welcome! I love you too joe!" But I couldnt! =( I cant say it my mom, dad, NOBODY. I just feel weird saying it. I think I wrote I LOVE YOU once in a birthday card for my mom. When she read it she said "WHAT! Do you mean it?!" I said "What the hell! YES!" Then she hugged me. Oh! and I think Ive said it while I was entoxicated too. But that doesnt REALLY count lol

Yeah . . . There's people that use that word like nothing. They say it like . . . . its just another word. Maybe it is JUST another word to them. Whatever. Moving on!

One of my friends (Im going to leave her name out of it, just in case) came to the bowl today and she showed me her ultrasound! Her baby looked like a little BEAN! I think she's about 1 month and a half preggers. Yeah. How exciting! I cant wait to meet the baby! =D I hope its a girl so I can get her all that disney crap! =D

I was itouch less today =( I gave my itouch to my co-worker. He's going to download some things onto it so I can get FREE aps and a lot of other "cool" things. I hope he finishes it today, I missed my music today =/

Sooooo, remember mystery man? Well! It turns out he knows someone from El Cap! Can you believe that! What a small world, eh?! Yeah, I couldnt believe it. So, I was talking to another co-worker from the bowl and I told him about my little infatuation with mystery man and it turns out that they're FRIENDS! OMG I was surprised! hahaha So, now me and my co-worker talk about mystery man. I enjoy talking to HIM about it more than talking to a GIRL about mystery man because (1) Theyre FRIENDS (2) They're the same species, MEN (3) Guys are funny when it comes to situations like these lol

I dont have any pictures for this blog. Sorry. I know some of you are VISUAL learners and you NEED visuals. But I dont have any today. Um . . . .

I think this is all. I go in at 11am tmrw at El Cap. I get to sleep in for a little bit, thank God! =D

Zzz . . .